(Up the stairs, the station where the act becomes the art of growing up.)

mofo

Thu, 17 Jun 2004 14:59:03 GMT

damnit.

check this shiz out. i get a new car yesterday and i dont even have it for a mere 24 hours and it already gets jacked. duncanville is so ghettoass.

yeah, they jacked the cd player.

all the broken glass and shiz

ugh. so yah, my dad had me take pics with my camera so we could show it to the insurance ppl if they needed pics of it or whatever.

so yeah, the cops came and filed a report and all that jazz. then my grandpa came over and helped me and my mom clean it out and take it up to some carwash place and vacuum all the glass out.

damnit, i wish i woulda been awake and had my daddy's gun and shot those bastards *pouts*

yah

Sun, 09 May 2004 20:38:58 GMT

[x] Birth date: may 19, 1988
[x] Eye Color: green
[x] Hair Color: strawberry blonde
[x] Righty or Lefty: righty
[x] Zodiac Sign: taurus
[x] Innie or Outtie: innie
-----------------DESCRIBE------------------
[x] The shoes you wore today: my old navy platform flip-flops
[x] Your eyes: are big and stupid
[x] Your fears: death, spiders, being alone, unsanitary people
-----------------WHAT IS------------------
[x] Your most overused phrase on aim: lol
[x] Your thoughts first waking up: I need to pee!
[x] The first feature you notice in the opposite sex: smile, eyes.
[x] Your best physical feature: I think my hair. Just cuz its unique.
[x] Your bedtime: 10-10:30 (weedays) I need my sleep.
[x] Your most missed memory: hanging out with heather. man I miss her.
-----------------YOU PREFER------------------
[x] Pepsi or coke: neither. DP!
[x] McDonald's or Burger king: mcdonald’s but just cuz they have those adult happy meals.
[x] Single or group dates: groups are more fun and you know something is bound to happen, but single is more romantic.
[x] Adidas or Nike: nike
[x] Chocolate or vanilla: chocolate.
[x] Cappuccino or coffee: cappuccino.
-----------------DO YOU------------------
[x] Smoke: no
[x] Cuss: when im mad.
[x] Take a shower everyday: duh. that’d be gross if not.
[x] Have a crush(es): no.
[x] Who are they: …
[x] Do you think you've been in love?: yes
[x] Want to go to college: yes
[x] Like high school: no
[x] Want to get married: no. never.
[x] Type w/ your fingers on the right keys: mostly yes.
[x] Believe in yourself: sometimes.
[x] Get motion sickness: not really.
[x] Think you're a health freak: yeah. but theres nothing wrong with that.
[x] Get along with your parents: actually yes.
[x] Like thunderstorms: yes
[x] Play an instrument: I did.
------------IN THE PAST MONTH DID:/: HAVE YOU--------------
[x] Go to the mall: yes!
[x] Eaten sushi: no…
[x] Been on stage: yes.
[x] Been dumped: ah…yes.
[x] Gone skating: yes
[x] Made homemade cookies: yes, a long time ago.
[x] Dyed your hair: nope.
[x] Stolen anything: yes.
-----------------HAVE YOU EVER------------------
[x] Flown on a plane: yes
[x] Missed school because it was raining?: crap, no.
[x] Told a guy/girl that you liked them?: yeah.
[x] Cried during a Movie?: yes…a walk to remember…omfg.
[x] Ever thought an animated character was hot?: I think back when I was little I did.
[x] Had an imaginary friend: yes. Her name was Chevy.
[x] Cut your hair: yes
[x] Had crush on a teacher?: ehh haha, no.
[x] Been caught "doing something": not that I can remember. And if i did do something, it wasnt "like that"

[x] Gotten beaten up ?: by Jacob.
[x] Been in a fight: ALMOST. In eigth grade. This Mexican girl named Melissa.
[x] Shoplifted: no.
-----------------THE FUTURE------------------
[x] Age you hope to be married: don’t care.
[x] Numbers and Names of Children: probably 3. I like Bayley & Blair for girls, and Austin for a boy.
[x] Describe your Dream Wedding: June. In a church. BIG wedding. My bridesmaids wear baby blue dresses. And when my husband takes off the garder or whatever its called, he has to do it with his teeth.
[x] How do you want to die?: in my sleep, when Im really old.
[x] What do you want to be when you grow up?: anesthesiologist.
[x] What country would you most like to visit?: argentina, brazil, germany, spain, italy, ireland, Japan, and England
-----------------OPPOSITE SEX------------------
[x] Best eye color: deep deep blue
[x] Best hair color: dark black
[x] Short or long hair: long
[x] Best height: tall.
[x] Best weight: slender.
[x] Best first date location: beach would be romantic.
[x] Best first kiss location: underneath the stars, on a blanket. (rain optional)
-----------------NUMBER OF-----------------
[x] Number of Boyfriends/Girlfriends you've had: technically 6, but 4 our of those 6 were in between 4^th and 6^th grade, so those really don’t count.
[x] Number of people I could trust with my life: 3
[x] Number of CDs that I own: probably 150…I don’t know exactly.
[x] Number of piercings: 2
[x] Number of tattoos: 0
[x] Number of times my name has appeared in the newspaper?: atleast 10
[x] Number of scars on my body: I think 2 or 3
[x] Number of things in my past that I regret: alot
----------------FAVORITES------------------
[x] Shampoo: garner frutis.
[x] Fave Color(s): baby blue, turquoise.
[x] Day/Night: night
[x] Summer/Winter: summer.
[x] Lace or Satin: satin
[x] Fave Cartoon Character: tom and jerry.
[x] Fave Food: crab legs!
[x] Fave Movies: twister, hocus pocus, pirates, and titanic.
[x] Fave sport: volleyball, basketball, and I think surfing is so awesome.
----------------RIGHT NOW------------------
[x] Right Now Wearing: church clothes…consisting of shirt & top and shoes. And jewelry.
[x] Drinking: nothing.
[x] Thinking about: sleeping.
[x] Listening to: chili peppers.
---------------IN THE LAST 24 HRS------------------
[x] Cried: no.
[x] Worn jeans: no.
[x] Met someone new online: no.
[x] Done laundry: yes
[x] Drove a car: yes
---------------DO YOU BELIEVE IN--------------
[x] Yourself: sometimes.
[x] Your friends: certain ones.
[x] Santa Claus: yeah man. hes my hero.
[x] Tooth Fairy: no. shes gay.
[x] Destiny/Fate: nope.
[x] Angels: yes.
[x] Ghosts: no.
[x] UFO's: I dunno bout that one…
[x] God: yes.
------------FRIENDS AND LIFE------------------
[x] Do you ever wish you had another name?: yes. My mom almost named me Logan. That woulda been so much cooler and not as common as Amanda.
[x] Do you like anyone?: my boyfriend yes.
[x] Which one of your friends acts the most like you?: jenny & melissa.
[x] friends?: ??? what ???
[x] Are you close to any family member?: my parents. And cousins.
[x] What's the best feeling in the world?: accomplishment, receiving a compliment, hugs.

[x] Worst? Lonliness, unloved, failure.

peeekkktttuuurrreeessszz!

Sun, 25 Apr 2004 20:00:15 GMT

yay! picturetime!

so its been a while since ive updated. not much new, just i started breaking out in rashes on friday and went to the doc's and he said it was the hives. the stereroids worked. so i didnt get to go to the mall as planned on friday. instead jacob came over and we watched drumline and the ring. then saturday we went to his parent's friend's birthday party. mexican rice=goodness.

today was church. 'twas fun. apparantly samantha is coming now because her and peter are "talking." what people see in that boy, i will never know.

now i leave you with pictures :)

eww, im too white.

muh hair.

jamie, jenna, and bethany

kristin, scott, garret, and becca.

ryan and whitney. ehh, and jacob.

one of jacob's friends. some freshman. his name is too hard.

julie, jacob, april, becca, jenny, and jamie

myra's older sis and julie

geena, allie, and leann. oh, and jacob's foot.

jacob and andrew. aww

femme and martin. femme's so dark, i doubt u can see him.

andrew and leann. so cute

geena and cilia.

geena, michelle, and stephanie.

april and alex. *the couzinz*

april and stephen.

oh yeah, and this would be the pic jamie is so proud of.

robin's tie was pimp.

(other random pics)

jacob's lil sis, rebecca (left) and her friend. i dunno what happened to her arm.

*whataburgarler*

melissa.

alyssa.

james and tyler. and kirk's back there somewhere.

jacob.

yummy.

muh beatles purse. check out georgy. hes muy caliente.

tyler. sleepin.

jacob 'n tyler.

the parents. my mom is on the far left. then melissa's mom and dad beside her, and then lynn and tim.

kirk. trying to hide.

???

the new van. and my mom's crappy parking.

psha. i dunno.

THE END.

so my birthday is in: 25 days

time to start the planning. bye for now!

Thu, 15 Apr 2004 21:54:09 GMT

so my daddy got a new car for his work. it has those automatic doors and its super comfortable. and it FINALLY has a cd player.

umhm, crank up that coldplay baby.

everything is so drag lately. i have no push or urgency to do anything. my room has been messy for i dunno how long. i dont care about anything anymore. nothing. im so tired of this school year. summer needs to hurry its ass up. oh, muh birthday needs to hurry to.

birthday: May 19th. that would be a Wednesday. and a "B" day. now you have no excuse.

oh lord. so did anyone hear about this "list?" summer smith told me about it. supposidly some guys made a list of the top girls they'd wanna do. brianna bradshaw was #1.

tomorrow is me and jacob's 3 months. :)

i don't like california.

Mon, 12 Apr 2004 02:57:14 GMT

so i saw 'the alamo' friday night with jenny, blake, and kirk. it got all these bad reviews. it wasnt that bad, just the order they put stuff in was weird. Bowie was hott. for an old guy. and davey crockett was the shiznit.

see, what'ddi tell ya. all them darn mexicans tryin to mess with us whit folk. so yeah, we saw jamie and brett there too.

went shoppin saturday. me, jacob, collin, ian, and caitlin. me and caitlin tried on EVERYTHING we could. literally. we went into all the girly stores and the prom stores. i think thats the first time ian has let us takeover where to go at the mall. oh, and we saw madison duncan with her bf in A & F. thankfully, she didnt see us.

easter sucked. the weather sucked. and i swear, if we had a freaking BLIZZARD our church would still have the air on full blast during service. its all these old foggies with hot flashes. and yeah...everyone was outa town. mikki brought samantha. then after evening church services, me, kirk, jill, and blake went to chili's. we had a nice, long talk. bout music, church, california, and sports. it was nice.

jillissocute.

so much for bluebonnet pictures... *sigh*

cuz

Sat, 10 Apr 2004 16:41:25 GMT

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the pic of justo.

Mon, 05 Apr 2004 21:21:54 GMT

THATS justo. in the middle, with the long shaggy blonde hair...[shivers]

just more random pics of the wedding jacob gave me.

what the heck is he doing in that pic. oh lord.

Sat, 03 Apr 2004 03:17:59 GMT

i HATE waiting. im such an impatient person, i freakin HATE waiting.

goddang, hurry the hell up. seriously.

i HATE waiting. geezus.

::UPDATE:: tonight was the gayest night of my life. parents are so stupid. oh, and tyler called me tonight saying that heather is coming back home tomorrow. we're gunna go out to lunch with her tomorrow, to cedar hill somewhere or whatever. im glad things are finally starting to come together.

I am the watch you always wear but you forget to wind...

Mon, 29 Mar 2004 23:11:17 GMT

I have just now realized how screwed up and pointless high school really is. yeah, call me crazy cuz it took me this long to figure it out, but it really is just...retarded. so much pointless drama and shiz. I'm just so ready to be out on my own and off in college. i dunno, maybe im just going through a phase because its the end of school or something...i dunno. high school is just so freaking gay. and i suck at it...so much. i wish i was just naturally good at something...something...

"I'm an old abandoned church with broken pews
and empty aisles."

man...brand new kicks so much ass. ASS.

so kirk is staying. hes not going back to california. but he has to repeat his junior year. thats okay...i still love him. <3

humidity=bad hair days

Sun, 28 Mar 2004 19:34:49 GMT

so kirk came back in town. he was at church today. his hair is bigger now. not BIG, just a lil bigger.

he didnt have his piercing in. he said his mom made him take it out.

umhm. sure.

so yah...it was cool. we talked alot. hes staying till Wednesday. yay :)

my friday night was:

chillin' at caitlin's with her, ian, me, jacob, jenny, cameron and tyler.

mmm, more taco bell.

then we all (except for ian and caitlin) went to staci's party.

i <3 staci. she was such a sweetie. she had the hots for tyler. and i think sylvia did too...???

then we went back to charlie's house and met back up with ian, caitlin, and dj. cameron had to give some ppl the directions to the party. they thought the party was at charlie's.

ahahaha.

me and jacob went to a wedding yesterday. the groom was one of his friends who was from argentina too and then some mexican girl. i think i was the only non-fluent spanish speaker there. translationplease.

jacob and his lil sister, rebecca. shessocute.

me and jacob's older sister, melissa. she was a bridesmaid.

hehehe. jacob caught the garner.

yeicob, his madre y hermana.

crapppppp. i took a pic of this one guy who was there. hes a famous singer from argentina and jacob said all the kids who took spanish last year got to see him in concert. his name is Justo Lamas. super hottness. too bad he has a superbeautiful wife too. darn. but yah, hes supercool too. super super super.

next time hes in concert, im fo sho goin.

Wed, 24 Mar 2004 03:10:28 GMT

im really getting tired of mexican people and all their stupid shiz.

crap...

Sun, 21 Mar 2004 22:22:09 GMT

so spring break is pretty much over.

it was alright. coulda been better. like ROAD TRIP better.

so heres what i did:

SUNDAY: volleyball tournament. GOT 3RD! went to pick up my dad from the airport... then went to the movies with melissa, alyssa, tyler, brian, james, & tiffany. we saw starsky and hutch. it wasnt that great.

MONDAY: slept in. got my haircut (not that much of a difference), went to cedar hill with ian, dj, and charlie. ate at chili's, got ice cream from marble slab, shopped around, and then hung at dj's casa.

TUESDAY: jenny called me up. went over to dj's. chilled with dj, ian, and charlie. hung out in dj's new "game room" (ping-pong table, refrigorator, CD player AND recliner included.)

went to thrift town..bought stuff, and bought the recliner for $15. its comfy, but its about to freakin break. then we got some food, picked up cameron, and chilled at dj's for the rest of the night.

WEDNESDAY: lounged around at home. then jenny, ian, and dj came and picked me up. hung around cedar hill. dj ate a laxative ian gave him. so we had to drive dj home JUST SO HE COULD TAKE A DUMP. then, as we were driving back to cameron's we saw sylvia. she sped up with us and followed us to cameron's. it was funny. she has braces now! but she still looks just as pretty. then we picked up cameron, drove BACK to cedar hill. these mexican guys were talking mexican and kept looking at us. went to barnes 'n noble. looked at the gay and lesbian section...very interesting. went to marble slab. i drove jenny's car home. its nice. then i went to church. it was fun.

THURSDAY: sick. cramps suck. periods suck. ughhhhhhh.

FRIDAY: went out to eat with my grandparents, and my aunt, uncle, and cousins. then alyssa came over and we chilled for a while. then i rented a movie and fell asleep.

SATURDAY: JACOB CAME HOME. picked him up. went to the mall. cuz some stuff from express and hollister. shiz express had a freakin good sale. saw hayden lackey again working at hollister. *shivers* geezus. AHH i saw amanda ocampo there. saw tiffany smith there. then we went to cameron's and met up with him and jenny cuz his parents were throwing a cookout for us and his parent's friends. chilled to some AC DC. haha. looked at kelly's body-building pics, then went to marble slab, and WE SAW GREG!!! ahh.. he had to cut his hair...geez. went to barnes 'n noble. looked at all the gay sections again. then went back to cameron's. chilled. went home.

so yah. that was my spring break. we have a devo tonight at troy's house. i think kristin might come. jacob too.

::SPRING BREAK PICTURES FOR YOUR ENJOYMENT::

so we went to thriftown...

so then dj and ian wanted to buy a recliner for the game room...

so they made me test them out..

ah yes. testing them out.

then jenny bought a purse. it was lovely.

charlie's new car=so not fair.

something i stole from marian...thanks marian.

Sat, 20 Mar 2004 01:10:07 GMT

Basics
Name: Amanda
Sex: female
Birthday: may 19, 1988
Sign: taurus
Siblings: sister, laura, 21
Hair Color: strawberry blonde
Eye Color: green

Relationships
1. Whos your best girl friend, and guy friend? girl: jenny, chelsea, kristin; guy: tyler, jacob.
2. Who do you love the most? family & friends.

Fashion Stuff
1. Where is your favorite place to shop? express & hollister
2. Tattoos or piercings? my ears...for now.

Specifics
1. Do you do drugs? no.
2. What kind of shampoo do you use? suave
3. What are you most scared of? being alone and spiders.
4. What are you listening to right now? rap. oh lord help me.
5. Who is the last person that you talked to on the phone? alyssa.
6. Where do you want to get married? a church...
7. How many buddies are online right now? 12
8. If you could change anything about yourself, what would it be? smaller eyes, & i wish i was taller.

Favorites
1. Color: baby blue, turqiose.
2. Pasta: my g-ma's speghetti.
3. Boys names: austin, scott
4. Girls names: bayley, blair
5. Subjects in school: la clase de espanol.
6. Animals: those big, fluffy dogs.
7. Sports: volleyball, basketball, and i now have a new appreciation for soccer.

Have you ever...
1. Given anyone a bath? yes. my cousins.
2. Smoked?: no.
3. Bungee jumped? not yet
4. Made yourself throw up? yah. no, not like i was baliemic or anything.
5. Skinny dipped? haha. chelsea's house man...
6. Been in love? eh...ive THOUGHT i was...
7. Made yourself cry to get out of trouble? yah. mom's a sucker for it.
8. Pictured your crush naked? not really. dicks are so gross looking and retarded. i hate picturing that aspect.
10. Where'd 9 go? on top of the 6...?
11. Lied? yah. its a really bad habit of mine. and im sorry...
12. Fallen for your best friend? umhm.
13. Been rejected? yah.
14. Rejected someone? yah.

1. Do you like filling these out? depends.
5. Gold or silver? silver
6. What was the last film you saw at the movies? starsky and hutch
7. Favorite cartoon? i dont watch cartoons...*bites finger*
8. What did you have for breakfast this morning? eggs.
9. Who would you hate to be locked in a room with? LOTS of peole
10. Who would you love being locked in a room with? orlando bloom, josh hartnett, deigo luna, charlie hunnam, brad pitt, AND collin ferrel ALL AT ONCE.
11. Could you live without your computer? eh...maybe
12. Would you color your hair? only when it turns gray.
13. Could you ever get off the computer? yah. sure. anytime.
14. Habla espanol? si.
15. How many people are on your buddy list? 137
16. Drink alcohol? no. im sorry jenny...i just dont.
17. Like watching sunrises or sunsets? both. but sunsets are...more romantic.
18. What hurts the most, physical or emotional pain? emotional, because it feels physical and takes longer to get better <--what she said.

Currently
Clothes: pants and a layered shirt.
Taste: milk.
Make-up: brown eyeliner, mascara, foundation and blush.
Hair: bun.
Annoyance: how freakin hott this house is...

Favorite artist: sheryl crow.
Desktop picture: the O.C.'s offical desktop picutre with ryan on it. i <3 ryan.
Book you're reading: bible.
Cd in player: coldplay. always coldplay.

Last Person
You touched: charlie
You talked to: alyssa
Hugged: charlie
You miss? jacob...
You yelled at: mom

Are You...
Understanding: usually.
Open-minded: depends. maybe.
Arrogant: dont think so.
Insecure: about certain things.
Interesting: i guess.
Random: not really.
Smart: NO.
Moody: around period time. yes.
Organized: heck yeah. if i wasnt, i would DIE.
Healthy: very.
Shy: no, but it depends on whose around.
Difficult: only with my mom.
Bored easily: no.
Messy: my hair.
Responsible: yah.
Obsessed: umm...some stuff.
Angry: not right now
Sad: yes..damn charlie.
Happy: kinda. cuz i get RIDES now.
Hyper: no, im calm right now.
Trusting: depends.
Talkative: not as much as i used to be

Who do you want to...
Kill: drew barrymore.
Slap: plenty of people.
Look like: whats her name...goes to our school...julz? yah...her...gosh...
Talk to offline: ian's granny. im hoping shes ok.
Talk to online: i dont care.

Random
In the morning: get outa bed, pee, shower, eat breakfast, do my makeup, do my hair, dress, put all my jewelry on, grab lunch and stuff...head out.
Love is: a process.
I dream about: the future.

Which is Better?
Coke or Pepsi: neither.
Flowers or candy: flowers.
Tall or short: tall. tall is sexy.

Opposite Sex
What do you notice first: teeth and eyes.
Last person you slow danced with: i think ian...but the last person i DANCED with was jacob.
Worst question to ask: why are you so white?
Who makes you laugh the most: tyler, jenny, melissa.
Who makes you smile: dj, ian, cameron.
Who do you have a crush on: noone.
Who has a crush on you: ughh, im guessing no one...
Who is easiest to talk to: tyler, jenny, chelsea, melissa, blake

Do You Ever/Have You Ever...
Sit on the internet all night waiting for that someone special to IM you? no. i need my sleep.
Save conversations? yeah. for specific reasons.
Wish you were a member of the opposite sex? yeah. plenty of times.
Cried because of someone saying something to you? definately.

Thu, 18 Mar 2004 00:59:42 GMT

im sick and tired of hearing this freaking security system alarm go off from the freaking neighbors who arent freaking home to turn it off, so the whole neighborhood has to call the police just to get one lousy cop up here to turn it off, but yet hes too gay-ass to know how to turn it off, so it keeps blaring over and over and over and over, and then JUST when we think its FINALLY turned off, it goes back on again.
copsaresoridiculouslydumb.

my sizzle factor...

Mon, 08 Mar 2004 03:02:35 GMT

i REALLY dont want to go to school tomorrow.

stupid 9-weeks assessments. bagh.

dirty dancing: havanna nights is HOTT. diego was HOTT.

check out my other latino boyfriend. :)

yeah yeah yeah, so hes all sweaty and whatnot, but thats ok...hes an exception.

YAY! 1st place at the tournament! :)

Sun, 07 Mar 2004 02:18:43 GMT

THE PASSION IS THE BEST MOVIE EVER!!! IF YOU HAVE NOT SEEN IT, GO SEE IT!!!

yeah, okay, so it was gory and i cried, but still...man its really powerful.

anyway...not much has happened really. yeah...i went to jacob's game friday and then we went to the movies with my mom to see the passion. they won 9-0.

i told him if he scores this season ill give him a dollar.

he gets 50 cents for assists. :)

ok, and no offense if your mexican or of hispanic decent, but it seems like the majority of girls that are pregnant at are school are mexican(hispanic). seriously...its just crazy. it is just a fad or something? i dunno...im too white to understand i guess.

sorry. random crap i felt like sharing.

huevos. <--ahahahahahaahahaha!

Internet.

Fri, 05 Mar 2004 03:40:00 GMT

yes. internet is finally working. stupid storm/lighting and all that good stuff screwed it up.

so tomorrow im gunna go to jacob's game and then probably go see 'the passion' w/ some ppls. the rest of my family has already seen it and said its good, so now its my turn.
just everyone keeps telling me about the person that plays the devil in the movie. sounds really freaky, but they said its a woman playing the devil.
but ewww...pale white face and no eyebrows...that creeps me out right there.

but i really wanted to go to my lock-in at church, but i cant cuz of stupid volleyball tournament. ughh...im glad thats all winding down, seriously. makes me mad though that i cant go... i REALLY wanna go. ugh.

alright, so tiem to post the classes im taking next year:

Pre-AP English III
Honors Anatomy and Phsiology <--yeah, cant take physics cuz i havent completed Algebra II
Algebra II
Pre-AP U.S. History
Spanish II
Volleyball
Oral Interp.

that is all... :)

ughhh....

Sat, 28 Feb 2004 18:27:43 GMT

so jacob is gunna be gone THE WHOLE FREAKING SPRING BREAK to new york.
he leaves that saturday and then doesn't get back until the sunday before we go back to school. ugh.

so spring break is offically girlfriends week. i need to take some more time with yall anyway.
as far as i know my spring break is:
monday-hair appointment/eyebrow waxing at 1 p.m.
then sometime go shopping with tiffany to the ARMY/NAVY store and then to the parks.

i really need/want a pedicure... :/

the rest...and more...

Tue, 24 Feb 2004 23:04:51 GMT

so...its been a while since my last post.

alot has happened. so lets recap:

melissa FINALLY hooked up with the guy shes been talkin bout for forever. ben marshall. ive heard from everyone hes a TOTAL hottie. yay, go her. now we just need to get alyssa a man.

found out alot of juicy stuff lately from jenny and chelsea. lots-o-mess been goin on. yes yes.

ummm...what else...

jacob came over saturday after my volleyball tournament.

then he went to church with me again sunday and we went to Wendy's with melissa, alyssa, their parents and my parents. mmm wendy's. im really starting to appreciate it more.

i also found out my youth minister's wife is expecting a baby in September. YaY!

oOoOoOhh, i REALLY wanna see "The Passion." so what if it has controversy over it being "too gorey" Jesus' death was extremely gorey. plus, we see plenty of gore all the time anyways in regular war-movies.

alright, so now i leave you with the rest of the concert pics i took:

ahh...good times.

ooh, songs to hear from them. most of them are off their new album's. except for one.

Sugarcult-Memory

" "-First Band on the Moon

" "-I'm Alright

MXPX-Summer of '69

" "-GSF

and that is all.

gosh, i know you wanted more. its ok. you'll survive.

If a "gay guy" hits on you, is he still considered gay?

Wed, 18 Feb 2004 23:42:06 GMT

BAAAAA!

yes the concert was so OFF THE HOOK!!!!

it was great. sugarcult was the BEST EVER of all of them. and MXPX was just as good too.

billy talent sucked.

and simple plan was pretty ok. they just took forever on everything. i really dont care to see sp. i just wanted to see sugarcult and mxpx.

so yeah tyler ended up coming with me. there were so many ppl there from midlothian...seriously.

and stupid college kid sitting by me with his stupid beer spilt his stupid beer on my pants.

stupidcollegekiddrinkingbeerspillingbeeronmypants.

alright, so i took pics. they're crappy as ever cuz i have a bunk camera. shut up.

lisa, cheryl, and alyssa

tyler

yeayah.

oh yeah, tom from 'the clash' performed with MXPX too.

yeah...that was real random.

shirt i bought. at first i felt slutty buying it, but then i was like psha...whatever.

i think its sweet...

more pics to come. im just feeling lazy right now...

concert is TOMORROW!!!!

Mon, 16 Feb 2004 02:10:35 GMT

kirk's mom came up to me this morning at church saying that kirk wanted to hear from me.
im glad. i was planning on writing him an email anyway.
heres his email address if you wanna write:
kirkthurmond@msn.com

so, Valentine's Day=
box of chocolates and card from jacob
snowball fights/snowmen
new shirt from mommy

ive just realized this is the first time ive celebrated V-day with a boyfriend since 6th grade. last time was with brett tidwell. haha.

so yeah. jacob came over. we went to blockbuster and rented 'underworld' about vampires and warewolves. yes, all of the romantic movies were of course gone so we rented a movie about vampires.
vampires on valentine's day. wow.

i hated that movie. i was lost the whole time and it was a little too gorey for me.

so tomorrow is me and jacob's 1 month anniversary.
wow. that was fast.

by the by, i really dont think Valentine's Day is as stupid and pointless as everyone seems to say it is. i mean yeah, it does suck when you dont have a bf cuz you see all these couples and mess, but its also a time to show your family and friends how much you love them. no just some "sagnificient other" necessarily.
i always thought of Valentine's day as being fun and an excuse to buy new stuff. so you can still have fun on V-day no matter what.

ima go give my mommy a hug. :)

my hair sucks.

Wed, 11 Feb 2004 17:11:18 GMT

ive really been starting to get annoyed with myself lately.

It just seems like alot of things have been going down the tubes lately, and ive just been feeling kinda...lost.

school sucks. im so ready for spring break. im so ready for this 6 weeks to be over with. i really am.

actually, the only thing i really have to look forward to is V-day and the concert on Monday. i really CANNOT wait for those two days.

i just really need some extra down time to myself. just to calm down and work out problems.

i really wanna talk to my mom right now.

i just text messaged her a minute ago about getting my choice sheet today. i think shes gunna schedule an appointment with the counsoler about my schedule for next year.

i think ive finally come to a conclusion of a list of 3 possible things i would like to do when i grow up.

alas, i am not showing you because i think it is somewhat embarassing and...i just dont want to. but yeah...cant believe this school year is almost over. goodness.

man...my room is messy. i HATE it when my room is messy.

Sat, 07 Feb 2004 22:30:25 GMT

im sorry world that i just cant seem to live up to your high standards and expectations. excuse me for not being exactly the type of modern-day 15-year-old girl this world thinks i should be. im sorry that im not what everyone thinks i should be and exactly everything of what i shouldn't be. excuse me for not being as perfect as i should be and not living up to my "fullest potential."

everything is changing so fast right now. so many things have happened and ive found out so many things in the past half-hour its just ridiculous.

im so tired of people leaving me. people rejecting other people's feelings and only thinking of theirs.
why is everyone moving. why is everyone leaving. and why the hell is everyone changing so fast.
whatever happened to 8th grade. when we were all best friends and everything was fine 'n dandy. what the hell happened. why do i have to grow up. why oh why. why cant i just be 4 again and the only major trouble i got in was for drawing on the walls.
i hate change. change is gay. change sucks.
and im not trying to pick on those certain people (they know who they are) about this, and im not mad...just frustrated.
i want everyone back. i want everything to be the way it used to be. i want everything and everyone to be happy again, and i want those old friends back. i want those old memories back, and i want those old friends' feelings back.
i want all that good stuff back. instead of it leaving me.

no, nothing happened with me and jacob. we're fine. its just other issues.
today is offically a bad day.

Black & White

Thu, 05 Feb 2004 22:54:11 GMT

= some f-ed up babies.

fo shizzle.

random pictures from the powder puff game last thursday. :)

chris trying to hide from the camera. meanie.

HAHAHAHAHAHA!

TORREY!!! whats that jabroni???

julie. in spanish class. taking her exam.

that is all.

This'll Be The Day That I Die...

Tue, 03 Feb 2004 16:55:28 GMT

"they started singing bye-bye mrs. american pie..."

so today was the day that the music died.

R.I.P.

Richie Vallance

Buddy Holly

The Big Bopper

man, buddy holly was the shiznit. he still is.

im really starting to miss kirk. i wish he would come back. he always made me feel so good no matter what.